Depression is what I call the Devil's illness. He arrives without warning, and sends you to places that are very lonely,dark and dangerous. I know I have been there, and understand the trials we go through. Very often we feel alone and isolated and the sun never seems to shine. We push the very ones who love us the most, away.
Like a recovering alcoholic, I have to take each day as it comes. I desperately try and see a positive side to life, and sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't. It is a very lonley place to be, and of course, because no one can see the injury, very few understand the anguish we go through.
I believe all this is compounded as we grow older as we see the time left on this earth get shorter and we desperately want to enjoy what is left....but the devil will have none of it.
One of my greatest consolations is that by helping other people, I have found a strength that keeps me going on and gives me huge satisfaction. . This has given me a huge boost, and my appetite to do more has grown.
Whilst the devil will visit us from time to time, we can perhaps prepare ourselves more by feeding our soul with satisfaction.......it makes the knock on the door that more bearable.
Massage can give you that time you so desperately need and with the added bonus of someone willing to listen.
You also have to believe in yourself, and you need to have the desire to get better, because once the door is open, the world looks a far more beautiful place to be in.